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So I’ve been working with my company for four months now, and I love it. Truly, advertising is a great industry for me! I get to be creative, apply communication theory, and I’m basically my own self-run department. I control the social media of the company and advise clients on their social efforts.
But I’m realizing very quickly that marketing/advertising is a volatile, volatile industry. And I don’t know if I can deal with that much uncertainty — because you never know when you’ll be its next target.
In the four months I’ve been here, two people have been fired. One was for budgetary concerns (yikes), and one was because she wasn’t fulfilling her job requirements (and basically plagiarizing other works instead of independently creating content). A third person was asked to move from full- to part-time work to help with the budget as well (but meeting are scheduled on his days off and he’s required to be in attendance at some anyways).
In addition to that, two other people have quit and moved on. One was basically broken down by her manager (a horrible woman) and needed to get out, then that same manager left the company to go across the country and work in Toronto. Oh, but before she left, she had me investigate her new company on OUR company’s time. Without telling me. Shady.
We’ve also hired three new people, and they’re fantastic. But I think you get the point: lots of turnover and people coming in and out. Apparently this is abnormally high for the company, but I don’t really believe that.
To top it all off, in the four months I’ve been here the payroll has been delayed three times. Three times. That’s three times I’ve logged on to my banking site to pay bills, only to find that my paycheque wasn’t deposited. We’re moving away from this payroll system (because it’s clearly not working), but this latest delay (of the January 15 pay) is because of the company, not the bank we work with (as was the case in the other two delays, I guess). Apparently we didn’t invoice enough in December, and then after the holidays it can take up to 3-4 weeks for clients to respond to invoices, etc etc. Long story short, we didn’t get paid.
This scares the crap out of me. I have nothing to do with billing clients, or finding clients to increase our cash flow. I just work here. But the fact that my pay is depending on those factors (apparently) doesn’t sit well. Most people here are married/committed and have a dual income household. They’re able to sustain awhile with their current status, and a few days won’t make a huge difference to them. While Thomas and I live together and are committed, we don’t share a bank account/debts. My debts are my own, and my money is my own. We split all the bills.
Consequently, my account is at -$6, and the pay that was supposed to be in my account yesterday was supposed to pay down credit cards and buy groceries (my “fun” money paycheque — the end of the month is for heat, water, electric, rent, etc.). I’m definitely in the more fortunate category, because I have credit to temporarily fill the gap, but I feel like this is an unreasonable request to make of me as an employee. And some of my bills — like my rent, my student loan payment, my Visa bill — cannot be paid with credit. I cannot transfer funds from my cards to my chequing account by design; the interest charges on cash transactions are insane! If I don’t pay my student loan, my father gets a phone call, as he’s the co-signer.
I’m 24 — I shouldn’t need to borrow money from my parents or prepare them for the bank’s call letting them know that I’ve missed a payment.
I don’t make enough money to have the luxury of missing paycheques — I guess this is what they mean when they say you’re living paycheque to paycheque. I’m doing what I love, but at what cost? (Literally.)
I’m meeting with my old boss from the oil and gas sector tomorrow night to discuss a position he has available at his company. It’s a more senior position, and I’d be getting the job based not only on my qualifications but on “who I know.” Oil and gas is notoriously overpaid in Calgary; it’s where many companies have their head offices and we’re in the heart of oil country. What’s comforting is that the company G works for now is one that has made strides to become environmentally friendly and sustainable, unlike some others operating up north. That eases my conscience a little.
But can I leave something I love to do, and people I enjoy working with, for an industry that I’m not passionate about? How much money will it take for me to sell out? And when, if ever, will I find a way to marry my interests and activities with a paycheque that will pay my bills?
I’m starting my dental work this year, and I’ll need to have a hefty amount of money at the end of it all to pay for the final installation of work. Thomas and I want to buy a house eventually. Maybe, I don’t know, get married? Travel? Life stuff. But is it worth changing my job?
I don’t know. I’m feeling really conflicted. But I know one thing for certain: I don’t do uncertainty well.